about ten minutes ago, it was pissing down rain outside. right now, it's either stopped completely, or slowed to a really light drizzle. i can't tell.
i love rainstorms. i don't exactly know why, but it probably has something to do with the calmness that comes after it, or the "fresh start" feeling it gives me because it's washing everything away.
my dad is painting the house right now. it smells like crap. i offered to help him, and i got a nice snap about how i should go "do whatever i'm supposed to do." wtheck.
so here i am, on the computer, trying to write my CAS proposal, but getting distracted, because duh, i'm on the computer. and i figured, "hey wtheck, i haven't written anything on my blog in a a couple days. i'll do that now."
i've had Jack Johnson's "Upside Down" playing in my head on repeat all day. it's making me nostalgic.
so i feel really cool...i just dictionary.com-ed "nostalgia" :
i want to go home. and not my house, but actually home. i'm missing TAF especially right now, though i don't know why TAFblues chose today to hit.
i wish i wasn't stuck in this cycle of constantly trying to impress people around me. people, i might add, who don't necessarily give a crap about me. i want to stop caring about what they think, but i can't. too bad i'm stuck at school for another Godknowshowmany days. it just reminds me so much how i want to be back in the TAF atmosphere.
i guess this feeling isn't new...i've written about it before. so how exactly have i changed up to this point? i'm not too sure.
i like to think i've become stronger. yeah, i cry more now than i have before, but i think out of those tears, i've learned that all i can do is realize that i am a mess, but so is the world (Bum Kim is brilliant). only from there can i truly grow into whoever God intended for me to become.
wow. leave it to me to turn this into a post about TAF right? i guess some would say i'm obsessed with TAF. maybe i am. but they haven't experienced most of the stuff i've gone through from my shoes.
but enough about that. let's move over to this weekend. Labor Day weekend has been a pretty good one. calm, relaxing, all that jazz.
Friday
i went out to breakfast with my mom and my sister. we had a nice, quiet talk about the fighting, and we established that in the future, we should probably confront silence rather than letting it settle. check.
we went shopping after breakfast at Somerset. have i ever mentioned how much i love Somerset? i love Somerset. i finally got some new jeans...my old Forever 21 one's were about to rip in the awkwardest places. i also got a cozy sweater from American Eagle. it's bright yellow. pahahah
Shannon's party was that night. it wasn't a big party--only 7 of us total. i love parties like that. you really get to know people, even people you just met.
Saturday
i slept in until 12:30, 1-ish on Saturday. i think i hung out with Cathy a little afterwards, because i was forbidden to go light shopping with the parentals.
that night, we made dumplings for dinner. it took so long...we didn't eat dinner until after 8:00. i got a stomachache later for eating too fast. i baked cookies too, but not the homemade kind. the store-bought frozen kind. whatever. they turned out good anyway. while they were baking, my mom brought out this one movie she bought called A Good Year. it was a cute movie, though i can't make myself sit through it a second time.
Sunday
some guy called Big John the Handyman came by to install our new lights for us. his name doesn't lie. he was quite big. i'm not making fun of him though, because he's a nice dude. personality > appearance.
i hate the new lights. i don't know what my parents were thinking when they bought them. they look so fluorescent..like bathroom light. or school light. it's terrible.
so while Big John the Handyman was installing our lights, my mom took me and Angela out for lunch. we went to Pier 1 afterwards, and i found this awesome cheese grater in the shape of a mouse. i will be posting a picture of/with it later. hahaha
i BBQ'd almost by myself for the first time yesterday too. the chicken came out pretty good. that, plus watching Disturbia again made a happy night. i got bored after dinner though, and ended up showering at 9:30-ish, which is crazy early for me. i hung out in mom's room after i got all clean and stuff and watched the end of Cold Case and about half of CSI: NY. i don't like Cold Case. maybe just the episode was weird, or whatever, but still. CSI: NY, on the other hand, is amazing. too bad i didn't get to finish because dad made me leave and go to sleep.
Monday...today
well, i kind of talked about what happened today. i'll just end this with a sad face, because i have to go back to school tomorrow :(
oh, and i'm about to make mac & cheese. i'm pretty excited.
i started writing this post an hour or so ago. in this hour, the rain pissed down really hard again, only this time, it hasn't slowed down to a light drizzle yet.
an hour ago, "Upside Down" was stuck in my head. guess what song there now? "Rock That Body" by Black Eyed Peas.
"i wanna rock right now, i wanna-i wanna rock right now, i wanna-i wanna rock right now, now, now, rock right now."
my dad is painting the house right now. it smells like crap. i offered to help him, and i got a nice snap about how i should go "do whatever i'm supposed to do." wtheck.
so here i am, on the computer, trying to write my CAS proposal, but getting distracted, because duh, i'm on the computer. and i figured, "hey wtheck, i haven't written anything on my blog in a a couple days. i'll do that now."
i've had Jack Johnson's "Upside Down" playing in my head on repeat all day. it's making me nostalgic.
so i feel really cool...i just dictionary.com-ed "nostalgia" :
nos-tal-gia
[no-stal-juh, -jee-uh, nuh-]
-noun
1. a wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one's life, to one's home or homeland, or to one's family and friends; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time: a nostalgia for his college days.
i want to go home. and not my house, but actually home. i'm missing TAF especially right now, though i don't know why TAFblues chose today to hit.
i wish i wasn't stuck in this cycle of constantly trying to impress people around me. people, i might add, who don't necessarily give a crap about me. i want to stop caring about what they think, but i can't. too bad i'm stuck at school for another Godknowshowmany days. it just reminds me so much how i want to be back in the TAF atmosphere.
i guess this feeling isn't new...i've written about it before. so how exactly have i changed up to this point? i'm not too sure.
i like to think i've become stronger. yeah, i cry more now than i have before, but i think out of those tears, i've learned that all i can do is realize that i am a mess, but so is the world (Bum Kim is brilliant). only from there can i truly grow into whoever God intended for me to become.
wow. leave it to me to turn this into a post about TAF right? i guess some would say i'm obsessed with TAF. maybe i am. but they haven't experienced most of the stuff i've gone through from my shoes.
but enough about that. let's move over to this weekend. Labor Day weekend has been a pretty good one. calm, relaxing, all that jazz.
Friday
i went out to breakfast with my mom and my sister. we had a nice, quiet talk about the fighting, and we established that in the future, we should probably confront silence rather than letting it settle. check.
we went shopping after breakfast at Somerset. have i ever mentioned how much i love Somerset? i love Somerset. i finally got some new jeans...my old Forever 21 one's were about to rip in the awkwardest places. i also got a cozy sweater from American Eagle. it's bright yellow. pahahah
Shannon's party was that night. it wasn't a big party--only 7 of us total. i love parties like that. you really get to know people, even people you just met.
Saturday
i slept in until 12:30, 1-ish on Saturday. i think i hung out with Cathy a little afterwards, because i was forbidden to go light shopping with the parentals.
that night, we made dumplings for dinner. it took so long...we didn't eat dinner until after 8:00. i got a stomachache later for eating too fast. i baked cookies too, but not the homemade kind. the store-bought frozen kind. whatever. they turned out good anyway. while they were baking, my mom brought out this one movie she bought called A Good Year. it was a cute movie, though i can't make myself sit through it a second time.
Sunday
some guy called Big John the Handyman came by to install our new lights for us. his name doesn't lie. he was quite big. i'm not making fun of him though, because he's a nice dude. personality > appearance.
i hate the new lights. i don't know what my parents were thinking when they bought them. they look so fluorescent..like bathroom light. or school light. it's terrible.
so while Big John the Handyman was installing our lights, my mom took me and Angela out for lunch. we went to Pier 1 afterwards, and i found this awesome cheese grater in the shape of a mouse. i will be posting a picture of/with it later. hahaha
i BBQ'd almost by myself for the first time yesterday too. the chicken came out pretty good. that, plus watching Disturbia again made a happy night. i got bored after dinner though, and ended up showering at 9:30-ish, which is crazy early for me. i hung out in mom's room after i got all clean and stuff and watched the end of Cold Case and about half of CSI: NY. i don't like Cold Case. maybe just the episode was weird, or whatever, but still. CSI: NY, on the other hand, is amazing. too bad i didn't get to finish because dad made me leave and go to sleep.
Monday...today
well, i kind of talked about what happened today. i'll just end this with a sad face, because i have to go back to school tomorrow :(
oh, and i'm about to make mac & cheese. i'm pretty excited.
i started writing this post an hour or so ago. in this hour, the rain pissed down really hard again, only this time, it hasn't slowed down to a light drizzle yet.
an hour ago, "Upside Down" was stuck in my head. guess what song there now? "Rock That Body" by Black Eyed Peas.
"i wanna rock right now, i wanna-i wanna rock right now, i wanna-i wanna rock right now, now, now, rock right now."
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