pet peeves

so guess what I'm ranting about today? pet peeves YAY

first, who came up with that name anyway? it sounds like..we like the things that bother us..? 'cause normally people like their pets...right. ANYWAY.

so certain things have happened in the recent past that have been pissing me off. which made me re-think my own pet peeves a little...I don't know why I re-thought pet peeves, of all things. it just happened.

1. I really hate when I'm all hypocritical and stuff. like, when I say I hate when people tell everyone every little thing about their lives (which would probably explain why I don't like watching things like The Hills..or something), but then I go running around to people and sharing everything about my life. yeah. hypocrisy = not fun.

it's weird though. I find it easier to blab about my problems to total strangers than to my friends. My friend Justin was saying how it's easier because you don't have to worry about them judging you, because you'll either never see them again, or you already don't see them enough that it's not a big deal. or, you know that they care and they want to help you. but that last one doesn't happen too much. at least not for me. only once a year in Indiana.

which leads me to number 2...

2. I hate that I care so much about what other people think. especially people who shouldn't matter. I know I've ranted about this before, but after getting a nice pep-talk from Mallika at 1 in the morning, I think I'm actually gonna try to not really care. 'cause seriously, I'm not that important, and no one really cares, so why should I? I should just focus on what makes me happy.

next.

3. I used to think those cliche girls were really stupid. like, those girls who beat themselves up over drama with other girls. and guys too, I guess. but now, being in situations like that, I get it. Girls get really crazy when there's drama. it's kind of scary. I don't remember where I read this, but someone said something like: when there's a fight between guys, they kind of yell a little bit, push each other around once or twice, and it's over. but not with girls. we plot and sneak around and try to stab each other in the backs.

now I know this definitely isn't the case for everyone. I'd probably smash my head into a wall if it was. it's just that it's all I really see around me.

4. another thing I used to hate: control freaks. Actually, I still don't like them (hahha, notice how I didn't say hate?), but I think I get why they're all control freak-y. They can't control their own lives so they decide to control other people. Mi padre is like that. I think he feels like he could have done more with his life, instead of being stuck here in this stupid state, working a boring job, yelling at his kids all the time. so he's trying to push me to live the life he never had and yadda yadda hoo ha. it's super annoying.

whatever. I could be wrong. I actually really HOPE I'm wrong. I'd like it if my dad was just yelling at me because he wants the best for me. Which is what he says he wants, but seriously? he doesn't know what's the best for me. yeah, I might not know either, but I'd rather be able to find out myself.

okay, I'm done here. taking a break in the middle of writing a post just makes me lose my train of thought.