what i was listening to: the circle of life
i wish i knew why the hell i'm even here..why i don't seem to have some meaningful place in the world around me--not like in the Lion King, where everyone has a place and a role. but apparently, i'm here to be difficult and have trust issues. that's a terrible reason to be here.
i wish i could just escape. i wish i could just leave. i don't want to be here right now.
too bad for me. i have to be here.
i wish i actually knew how to focus. i want to finish my fricking homework and stop staying up until 1-ish, 2-ish in the morning. i want to get good grades so my parents will stop freaking out about them. i want to get good grades so i can actually feel like i've accomplished something worthwhile. that'd be a nice experience.
i wish i could stop crying. i cry too much for my own good. and you know that numb-ish feeling you get after a big cry? that feeling doesn't go away anymore. i feel like i'm just kind of floating around, not fully conscious.
too bad it's not 11:11 right?
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